So much has happened since I've moved to Colorado! I wanted to share more of my adventure with you, but sometimes when life doesn't go as planned I hide away but the truth is I feel better when I connect and share.
Leaving Olympia was so hard and beautiful. I'm wearing socks and a jacket from my friend, Becky, who came over to my house with a basket of winter clothes for me to shop from. I'm wearing really warm Sorrel boots I bought from a gift certificate given to me by my yoga students/friends; Lindy, Barb, and LouEllyn. I have a cozy hand made sweater from my friend/yoga student, Peggy, and a homemade scarf my friend, Donnette, and I have warm mittens from my yoga student/friend, Hilarie. I was tipped extra and gifted books and clothes and money for my trip and transition to Colorado. You all helped me move here and your love surrounds me. My mom gave me a hat she bought in Iceland and I think of her whenever I wear it (haha, she told me to think of her when I wore it). I think of you all quite often and send my love and prayers.
Sometimes we have an image of how our lives will look but then they take a detour. Devil's Thumb Ranch is amazing in many of their ideals with sustainability but they had very little integrity and treated me very poorly. I was very disappointed with how they treat their employees. I no longer work there nor would I ever recommend anyone to work there until they change their policies.
But don't worry I got a wonderful new job at Bella Vita Day Spa doing massage and
I'm now teaching yoga at the most wonderful yoga studio called Mountain Moon Yoga. The owner of the studio is one of the best teachers I have ever had! She has a theme for every class and makes it: spiritual, emotional, and physical. I always leave feeling transformed.
I'm going to have a Colorado Yoga Retreat here in February 15-18th, details coming
COLORADO YOGA RETREAT
May you be happy,
My Journey from Olympia, Washington to Winter Park, Colorado
I I hope you are enjoying the fall! I've moved to Colorado for the fall, winter, and spring. I did a DNA test with Ancestory and found out that the majority of my ancestors were nomadic: 33% Viking, 49% Celt, 11% Italian. Since I was a child I've dreamed of traveling and living all over the world. It didn't help that my parents, aunts, uncles, and grandparents told magical stories such as; adventures of biking through Europe, staying in castles, traveling by canoe down the amazon.. I love seeing new places, meeting new people, and learning new ways of being and doing things. I also love returning to my homes to share what I've learned and nourish my relationships.
I wanted to live in another place for a while, but spirit kept me in Olympia. My life coach encouraged me to see Olympia as a spirit and what I saw was this old woman who loves everyone; she has a big fire and enough food and music for everyone. The original name for Olympia is Cheetwoot, where the black bears gather. Grandmother Cheetwoot is like a black bear; furry, loving, she takes care of all her cubs, and she also hibernates in the winter.
I love Olympia! I moved to Olympia as this free spirited 19 year old who had no idea what I believed in or who I was. At Evergreen I studied spirituality, yoga, history, psychology, dance, music, history, theater, and so much more. I fell in-love with myself through studying yoga, spirituality, and wellness. I followed my heart after college and did my yoga teacher training with Joanna Cashman. I was blessed to have taught at over ten different state and county offices, Saint Martin's University, many yoga studios, gyms, churches, parks, and senior centers. I was given such a rich education I wanted to share what I had learned.
Giant evergreens filled with moss
Feminine energy nourishing and holding
Drips and drops turning the earth into an eden of green
Harbors full of sailboats and house boats
Seagulls dropping clam shells
Rain-boots and wet clothes because who needs an umbrella
Rich salty air that fills you with tree spirit
Dirty and grimy, clean and cute, fancy and unique
Incredible coffee with endless laughter
Tender hearts who care too much
Visionaries, feminists, anarchists, activists, artists
Hope for everyone
Mud, water overflowing, creeks, rivers, bays, more mud
Grey skies for weeks and months
Incredible summers with perfect weather
Loving community trying to care for everyone
Logging trucks towing logs to be shipped to China
Seals, eagles, otters, blue herons, salmon
Food co-ops, yoga studios, organic restaurants
Love filled with knowledge, friendships, abundance,
healing, growth, and strength
I bow to you, jewel of the Salish Sea,
thank you for helping raise me
Olympia, I love you! I will be back in May or June but until then If you want a massage I encourage you to contact Ingrid Abbate. She is my favorite massage therapist and she will do the 4 massages for $260. www.roserootmassageandbotanicals.com
I have so much to say about my journey and being in Colorado, but I will leave that for the next e-mail. All I will say is I have to drink three times as much water, use lotion (what is that?), pace myself (I'm 10,000 feet above sea level), layer (it was -5 the other morning and then 50 degrees in the afternoon), and adjust to the fact that it is sunny almost everyday! What!? It is often cloudy for part of the day and then the sun comes out for the rest of the day..I really enjoy it, thus far. I do miss the lushness of Olympia, my people, the coffee, and the sound.
"Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love." -Rumi
Two of my yoga students passed away this summer unexpectedly and at-first it really scared me because I realized I could lose anyone I love suddenly, but then it made me appreciate everyone and each moment that much more. Also, I started to go deeper into my spiritual practice again and realized I don't believe in death.
We all have different perspectives on what happens when we die, but in the end..we were there before we were here, so on a really deep level we know where we go.
I love to write about taboo subjects to demystify them. Our culture is obsessed with looking young, being young, and pretending we never die. So, when death does happen we often have a hard time accepting it. I haven't lost anyone super close to me, so I asked my good friend who lost her dad a few years ago and thought she was going to die when she got cancer last year what she would suggest to support others who have lost someone:
~Sympathy Cards are really helpful
~Letting people know you are there for them and thinking about them
~The worst is when people avoid you
~The person grieving doesn't want to go into the details with everyone
~"I'm sorry for your loss" is nice for acquaintances but If you are closer you can offer to talk about it
~Continue to reach out. So much of the time people stop calling or writing after a month, but ask your grieving friend/s to tea, to go on a walk...keep reaching out
What about how to grieve?
"Death is just shedding your body. It is like taking off your shirt and throwing it away. So why are we afraid? At the time of death, the entire life you have lived is panoramically shown to you, and you are made the judge. If you can forgive yourself at that time, you are liberated."
My friend suggested the book:
A Grief Observed C.S. Lewis
Some Tips from friends who have lost loved ones:
~Continue your yoga practice even if you cry through the whole class
~Share stories of your loved one who has passed
~Get weekly or twice a week massage, especially if it was your partner who passed
~Let yourself fall apart for a while and ask friends to bring you food and snuggles and movies
~Stay connected, continue to talk to a friend at-least once a day or go on a walk or whatever you enjoy doing
~Deepen your spiritual practice
~Allow the grief to move through you..it may arrive at funny times, but just allow it to flow
~Adopt a pet or mentor a child..find ways to put your love into beings that need you
~Everyone grieves differently
"I am the ocean of consciousness. Sometimes I become the little wave of the body, but I am never just the wave without the Ocean of God."
"When I have left this physical form, I will be with you more than I ever was in this life."
Feel free to share helpful advice on grieving and dying below.